If you were to die today, what would happen? Where would you go? Would you just cease to exist? Or, do you believe what the Bible says? Would it be heaven or hell?
A little heavy this morning? Maybe...especially since I haven't blogged since June, it's like whoa Megan, chill. While I might like to do a post about some of our fun summer activities, or Nolan's first day of preschool, or Aubrey's first days of first grade...or even my recent adventures with Adelynne, my initial questions seem more urgent and more important...and quite frankly, heavy on my heart.
There is a celebrity who is an atheist, a very outspoken atheist, who has been vocal about his frustrations with Christians who don't share their faith with others. While he doesn't believe in God, heaven or hell, he finds it alarming that someone who believes that if someone doesn't accept Jesus that they would burn for eternity, why wouldn't they share that with someone they believe is destined for hell? He said, "You must really hate someone to not share your gospel with them knowing they will be going to hell." I found that so convicting. Those of you that read this blog, I love you enough to tell you the truth.
I believe what the Bible says. John 3:16-21 says that those who do not trust in Jesus as their Savior are condemned. I recently explained to Aubrey that not everyone who dies will go to heaven. "You have a choice Aubrey, love Jesus and trust him as your only savior, and when you die, you will go to heaven. Don't trust in Jesus as your savior, and when you die, you will wake up in hell." We talked about hell some. I was a little hesitant to do so, as, I don't want to scare her into a relationship with Christ. I want her relationship to come from the weight of her sin. But, at the same time, the reality is, that what the Bible says isn't ambiguous...it's very clear. 2 choices!
I am a sinner...an impatient, sharp tongued, sometimes inappropriate human being, full of many flaws. I've made MANY mistakes. My life especially in late high school and early college, was a life, I so desperately want my children to avoid. Not only did I do things that were wrong, but, I felt lost, desperately lost, hopeless, and down right unhappy. I got to a point where I just felt as if I could not go on any longer this way. But, guilt and shame seemed to always be around...like I could never measure up to what the "christian life" was supposed to be like. How could I ever measure up? I understood however, that there was no way out without accepting Jesus. Once that recognition of sin came, and making Jesus the center of my life, the other stuff came. I began to realize that Jesus doesn't want perfection, because if I'm perfect, no one sees Him, and how He can transform even to most wretched of sinners, which was how I felt. The Bible gives many examples of Jesus spending his time with people that that so desperately needed him while the ones who felt they were righteous turned away. Even His disciples, were not men of perfection or wealth. Matthew 9:12 says, "Jesus said, 'It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but, the sick. But go and learn what this means: I desire mercy, not sacrifice. For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.'" My word...He wants me.
Jesus doesn't care what you wear (to church or anywhere), He doesn't care what you're addicted to (pornography, drugs, etc), He doesn't care what you've done (good or bad), he doesn't care if you have piercings, or tatoos, or if you abuse your spouse. He went to the cross knowing that if you trusted in Him, that His blood would cover ALL of that. He also knew that even if you've been good all your life, and you didn't choose Him in this life, you would spend an eternity in hell. Matthew 7:13-14, "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."
Please, if you are unsure of your eternal destination, accept Jesus today. Make Him the Lord of your life...the rest will come. Don't make excuses for why you shouldn't, He doesn't care...He loved you enough the die for you.
If you were to die today, what would happen? Where would you go? Would you just cease to exist? Or, do you believe what the Bible says? Would it be heaven or hell? I love you enough to ask.
Please listen:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5c0N-DpfLR4
Mutterings from one lady trying to navigate marriage, motherhood, and life raising a special needs child...seeking to show 3 amazing kids Jesus while failing each day, but reassured with grace and mercy I'm right where The Creator wants me...
Monday, September 12, 2011
Thursday, June 16, 2011
2 weeks ago today (June 3, 2011), we were in Carrollton Kentucky on a Freeland (my mom's side) family vacation. We stay at a state park in cabins and spend our time visiting, swimming in the pool, eating and talking by a campfire. The girls love going and look forward to it. My mom has four sisters and all of them were able to come this year. We had a nice time and came home exhausted:)
June 3, 2009, 2 years ago, we received Nolan's Williams syndrome diagnosis. I'd known for a long time something was wrong which made the diagnosis somewhat of a relief. But, I won't lie, a little bit of me died that day, and that's not all necessarily bad. The Lord allows things in our life to change us, to shape us, to stretch us, and I'd never been so stretched in all my life....and it's ongoing. I believe one reason the Lord allowed this in my life specifically was to deepen my dependence on Him. I enjoy planning and having things in place...especially when I go to bed at night. Our house doesn't need to be clean, but for me, I need it picked up before I go to bed. I need toys put away, dishes in the dishwasher, and coffee loaded for the next morning. I get overwhelmed if I wake up in the morning to clutter, I need a clean slate. This is the only way to describe in a relate-able way, the first 2 years of Nolan's life...our life and family seemed to always been in a state of overwhelming clutter...a proverbial sink full of dirty dishes all the time, dusty wood floors, toys everywhere, and a constant state of disarray. No matter how much I pushed myself to "clean up" it never seemed to go away. I couldn't make it go away. And, I would wake up every morning to this. I would go to bed knowing I'd wake up to the "mess."
The only way to cope, really, would be to just try and not let the "mess" bother me. I'd try to focus on that day and what needed to be done, trying to cope with parts of the "mess" that were manageable. Let's be honest, no one ever died from a messy house, or piles of laundry. Some of the days weren't quite so good and the "mess" would really get to me. The side of Megan that could plan, plan, plan, and put everything in perfect order, and plan, plan, plan, and think about the future died 2 years ago on June 3rd. That side of Megan not only died, but, it truly could no longer exist. There's honestly no place for it in my life. I can't say, "in 5 years I'll be a nurse (where my passion is) and working 2 days a week while my kids are in school" because, well, I can't say that all my kids will be in school, on a full time basis without needed help from me. I can't say, "when my kids are grown and gone Brandon and I will travel" because, I don't know that all my kids will leave the nest. I can't say "when Nolan gets married" because it's unlikely he will marry.
My new, God given perspective and thought process is more like:
Lord, please allow Nolan to feel accepted and loved so that he doesn't experience what I read about most kids & adults with Williams do as they get older. Please spare him from ridicule and feelings of inadequacy so that he withdraws.
Lord, please protect the girls from feelings of resentment because sometimes our lives revolve around Nolan's needs and abilities.
Lord, if it be your will, would you allow Nolan's abilities to shatter the medical books so that his accomplishments could be far reaching for you...to show the world that Jesus can do anything.
Lord, when the mitral valve replacement becomes necessary, please protect Nolan.
Lord, so many children with WS die young as their little hearts just can't hold up or from other complications. I don't know Lord why you've allowed us to keep Nolan this long, but I ask Lord that you don't take him home to be with you until I've already passed as I don't know if I could withstand losing that little boy.
Thank you Lord Jesus for allowing us to have Nolan, that he is still here on this earth with us.
While some things in me died on June 3, 2009, many things came alive in me as well. A fresh, new, greater perspective began with the realization and true understanding that this life on earth is merely just a breath. This life can be hard, and some hands that are dealt are difficult, but, what do we do with that hand?
I want all of my children to have a deep fulfilling relationship with Jesus. The only relationship that will truly matter. The only relationship that will ever bring true peace and acceptance. The only relationship that will satisfy and never change.
Saturday brings about Nolan's 3rd birthday. 2 weeks ago we mourned a very sad day. But this week, we are celebrating so many of Nolan's accomplishments. His last session with his physical therapist, Karen, (who has been with Nolan since he was 5 months old) brought the realization that when she started with Nolan he was a limp baby that couldn't hold his head up. Now, Nolan the 3 year old, is running, jumping, climbing and just a half step behind his peers. This is a fact that brings all of us, including Karen, so much thankfulness.
I take great comfort in this passage,
Romans 8:31-39
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
June 3, 2009, 2 years ago, we received Nolan's Williams syndrome diagnosis. I'd known for a long time something was wrong which made the diagnosis somewhat of a relief. But, I won't lie, a little bit of me died that day, and that's not all necessarily bad. The Lord allows things in our life to change us, to shape us, to stretch us, and I'd never been so stretched in all my life....and it's ongoing. I believe one reason the Lord allowed this in my life specifically was to deepen my dependence on Him. I enjoy planning and having things in place...especially when I go to bed at night. Our house doesn't need to be clean, but for me, I need it picked up before I go to bed. I need toys put away, dishes in the dishwasher, and coffee loaded for the next morning. I get overwhelmed if I wake up in the morning to clutter, I need a clean slate. This is the only way to describe in a relate-able way, the first 2 years of Nolan's life...our life and family seemed to always been in a state of overwhelming clutter...a proverbial sink full of dirty dishes all the time, dusty wood floors, toys everywhere, and a constant state of disarray. No matter how much I pushed myself to "clean up" it never seemed to go away. I couldn't make it go away. And, I would wake up every morning to this. I would go to bed knowing I'd wake up to the "mess."
The only way to cope, really, would be to just try and not let the "mess" bother me. I'd try to focus on that day and what needed to be done, trying to cope with parts of the "mess" that were manageable. Let's be honest, no one ever died from a messy house, or piles of laundry. Some of the days weren't quite so good and the "mess" would really get to me. The side of Megan that could plan, plan, plan, and put everything in perfect order, and plan, plan, plan, and think about the future died 2 years ago on June 3rd. That side of Megan not only died, but, it truly could no longer exist. There's honestly no place for it in my life. I can't say, "in 5 years I'll be a nurse (where my passion is) and working 2 days a week while my kids are in school" because, well, I can't say that all my kids will be in school, on a full time basis without needed help from me. I can't say, "when my kids are grown and gone Brandon and I will travel" because, I don't know that all my kids will leave the nest. I can't say "when Nolan gets married" because it's unlikely he will marry.
My new, God given perspective and thought process is more like:
Lord, please allow Nolan to feel accepted and loved so that he doesn't experience what I read about most kids & adults with Williams do as they get older. Please spare him from ridicule and feelings of inadequacy so that he withdraws.
Lord, please protect the girls from feelings of resentment because sometimes our lives revolve around Nolan's needs and abilities.
Lord, if it be your will, would you allow Nolan's abilities to shatter the medical books so that his accomplishments could be far reaching for you...to show the world that Jesus can do anything.
Lord, when the mitral valve replacement becomes necessary, please protect Nolan.
Lord, so many children with WS die young as their little hearts just can't hold up or from other complications. I don't know Lord why you've allowed us to keep Nolan this long, but I ask Lord that you don't take him home to be with you until I've already passed as I don't know if I could withstand losing that little boy.
Thank you Lord Jesus for allowing us to have Nolan, that he is still here on this earth with us.
While some things in me died on June 3, 2009, many things came alive in me as well. A fresh, new, greater perspective began with the realization and true understanding that this life on earth is merely just a breath. This life can be hard, and some hands that are dealt are difficult, but, what do we do with that hand?
I want all of my children to have a deep fulfilling relationship with Jesus. The only relationship that will truly matter. The only relationship that will ever bring true peace and acceptance. The only relationship that will satisfy and never change.
Saturday brings about Nolan's 3rd birthday. 2 weeks ago we mourned a very sad day. But this week, we are celebrating so many of Nolan's accomplishments. His last session with his physical therapist, Karen, (who has been with Nolan since he was 5 months old) brought the realization that when she started with Nolan he was a limp baby that couldn't hold his head up. Now, Nolan the 3 year old, is running, jumping, climbing and just a half step behind his peers. This is a fact that brings all of us, including Karen, so much thankfulness.
I take great comfort in this passage,
Romans 8:31-39
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 36 As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[j]
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”[j]
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[k] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Monday, May 23, 2011
Nolan's Walk for Williams 2011
I'm wrapping up the loose end of Nolan's Walk for Williams today. I'm overwhelmed with all the help and support we received for the event and I am so very thankful. We had over 200 people attend with over $4000 raised for the William Syndrome Association! Here are some highlights from the day:
Thank you to all of our sponsors!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was so neat seeing a sea of orange shirts all walking together to raise awareness for Williams syndrome!
Adelynne and her friend Rachel
Nolan kept very busy all day... We gave him the title of "Grand Marshall"
My dad, Nolan, my sister, and my mom
Sweet little Dallin
Susan, Tracy, Sarah, Kendal and Jordan
The Paschal's!
Great friends!
More sweet faces from the day...
The Chic-fil-a cow came!
Great friends!
Thanks again to all who participated, donated and prayed!
Friday, May 20, 2011
I know, I know
It's no secret my life is a fast paced, crazy hectic vortex of caring for 3 children. Being a stay-at-home mom is a blessing, and I wouldn't trade it. I've never had a moment in the last 6 1/2 years (yes, that's how long I've been at home) where I've regretted being home everyday with my kids. Now, that doesn't mean there haven't been moments of frustration and desperation where I think to myself, I've got to get a job or I might go crazy in this house with these kids....it's actually happened a few times:) Life with 3 kids at home, homeschooling a 6 year old, getting a preschooler to school 2 days a week, 3 rounds of therapy for the boy, keeping up with the things around the house, being Brandon's helper as he teaches during the day and runs our mowing business in the evening...it's exhausting, it's hard, and it's consuming. I know I get consumed by it. It's hard not to. Not only is it my life, but, it's my job, my responsibility...and it's my joy. Just because I don't get in my car and punch in and punch out somewhere doesn't mean I don't try as best as I can to be great at my job. And when I think about it like that, I'm reminded of the fact that I don't get to punch in and out. I'm always mom. Someone will always need something. Something will always needs to be done. There's no quitin' time. And, that's ok. When viewed like that, it can be a little more understandable that being a mom just really might be consuming.
At the same time, I need to be able to remove myself mentally from my job when given the opportunity and try more at relating to other people, their jobs, their lives, their work, etc. I realize I don't do a great job at that because I can't seem to separate myself from my family. While I should be putting God first, Brandon second, my kids third, it seems at times there isn't a ton of energy left for others. I need to be better at that. I'm going to work on it.
I'm blessed to be the wife to Brandon, the mother to Aubrey, Adelynne, and Nolan. Sometimes, although, I do feel as though Megan gets lost in the shuffle. It's no one's fault but my own. I've often said that while motherhood is one of the greatest experiences in life, it's also a life of never ending guilt. We always, as mothers seems to question each and every decision we make. Here's Megan's mind sometimes when it comes down to doing things for myself....
"I should go to the gym, but, I feel bad leaving."
"I desperately need a haircut, but, I feel guilty spending the money."
"I want to meet, (fill in the blank), for coffee (or dinner) but I feel bad leaving AND I feel guilty spending the money!"
I'm quite content being a mother for now, I feel God has called me to be their mother. I'm content. Sometimes I feel scattered, stretched, stressed and spent. Yet, I'm happy. I feel blessed. These thoughts aren't meant to sound like a pitty party for Megan. Matter fact, I hope this post conveys the opposite. I simply a busy mom, admitting that at times she's consumed in her hectic life, who needs to spend more time thinking of others.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Seasons
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8
1There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
6a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
This past weekend was the first Nolan's Walk for Williams here in Plainfield (if you would like to still donate, you can until June 1st, http://www.williams-syndrome.org/nolans-walk-williams) . Brandon and I have spent the last 3 months knee deep in the planning for this event. We had 119 registered, but we estimate over 200 showed up. The forecast showed rain for the day with thunderstorms. Not a drop hit the ground that day! Countless people approached us during and after the event about how nice it was to just relax with family and friends while being encouraged. The event was also featured in the Hendricks County Flyer, http://flyergroup.com/local/
We're given seasons here on this earth. I hate winter. I hate being cold, sickness, feeling trapped in the house, etc. Yet in that season, I love Christmas! And, after that season comes spring, where all things are restored from being cold, sad and frozen...things are reborn and new. Life is like that. We have periods of great rejoicing like this weekend, and we have periods of great sadness...a time to die, a time to weep, and a time to mourn. Yesterday, a baby named Corbin (you can read about him here, http://ofkidsandcows.blogspot.com/), went home to be with Jesus. Corbin, like Nolan, was born with Williams syndrome. However, Corbin was born with a far more fragile heart than Nolan's. This is a fact that comes with a weighty reality that Nolan could have very easily had a heart like Corbin's. Don't think I haven't thought in the last day why God would choose Nolan to stay here on the earth for now, and why He would choose to take Corbin home to be with Him. I've also been brought back to the reality that every summer we have Nolan's heart checked. With every check comes the possibility that Nolan's heart could be getting worse and could require open heart surgery.
We are not promised a life free of turmoil, matter fact the Bible says in John 16:33, "In this life you will have trouble." The verse doesn't end there either, "But take heart, I have overcome the world." When I enter a season of weeping and mourning, I have to remember that Jesus overcame sin AND DEATH when he rose again. This life will bring trouble, trials, sadness and grief, but at the same time, Jesus overcame all that...one day for those whose hope is in Him, we will be in heaven celebrating with baby Corbin.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
To the girls
Dear Aubrey and Adelynne...my sweet little girls, born into an intentional, heavenly birth order.
There will come a day where you come to the realization that Nolan is different, that he was born with Williams syndrome. Daddy and I talk about it in front of you, but, neither of you has ever asked what it is. Matter fact, right now, we're planning Nolan's Walk for Williams, and no one's ever said, why?, what is it?, why does Nolan "have" it? For many reasons I'm extremely thankful. Neither of you look at Nolan as if he's a nuisance (unless he's pulling your hair:), or see his differences...it's inspiring...it's convicting...it's every parents dream for their children to love each other. And, the two of you love with such an unconditional accepting love...a love that's heaven sent. It makes your mother proud and my prayer is that it is always that way.
Mommy's fear is that your awakening will come with a crashing reality because a child (or even adult) will make a comment about Nolan's overfriendlyness, or because his face is different, or because he talks "funny." Girls, unless something like this has happened to someone else, they can't understand. And it's ok. It really is. You two are so special...God picked YOU! He picked you to be Nolan's sisters. You may never fully understand the privilege and honor it is that God picked you. He knew you both were exactly what Nolan needed not just now, but for the rest of his life, for your life. You are not only his sisters, you're his friends, the ones who love him without question, his defenders and protectors, his advocates...and your heavenly father knew that no other two girls were better for the job at showing the love of Jesus through your care for him and loving others when their approach with Nolan might be hurtful.
Along with this special gift we've been given will also come some sadness...sadness for Nolan, for our family as he'll have a long and sometimes heavy road in this life. If there is anything mommy has learned this far is that it's ok to be sad...because in that sadness God can reveal Himself. Jesus has already felt all the emotions that you'll feel, he understands it, he'll cry with you and rejoice with you. Embrace the good and the bad times. He'll always be present.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
Our purpose in this life is to live for Jesus. You've been given a hefty challenge...to love and care without question. But, we do this because Jesus overcame the world...we've not been promised an easy life, but we have been promised heaven.
Love,
Mommy
There will come a day where you come to the realization that Nolan is different, that he was born with Williams syndrome. Daddy and I talk about it in front of you, but, neither of you has ever asked what it is. Matter fact, right now, we're planning Nolan's Walk for Williams, and no one's ever said, why?, what is it?, why does Nolan "have" it? For many reasons I'm extremely thankful. Neither of you look at Nolan as if he's a nuisance (unless he's pulling your hair:), or see his differences...it's inspiring...it's convicting...it's every parents dream for their children to love each other. And, the two of you love with such an unconditional accepting love...a love that's heaven sent. It makes your mother proud and my prayer is that it is always that way.
Mommy's fear is that your awakening will come with a crashing reality because a child (or even adult) will make a comment about Nolan's overfriendlyness, or because his face is different, or because he talks "funny." Girls, unless something like this has happened to someone else, they can't understand. And it's ok. It really is. You two are so special...God picked YOU! He picked you to be Nolan's sisters. You may never fully understand the privilege and honor it is that God picked you. He knew you both were exactly what Nolan needed not just now, but for the rest of his life, for your life. You are not only his sisters, you're his friends, the ones who love him without question, his defenders and protectors, his advocates...and your heavenly father knew that no other two girls were better for the job at showing the love of Jesus through your care for him and loving others when their approach with Nolan might be hurtful.
Along with this special gift we've been given will also come some sadness...sadness for Nolan, for our family as he'll have a long and sometimes heavy road in this life. If there is anything mommy has learned this far is that it's ok to be sad...because in that sadness God can reveal Himself. Jesus has already felt all the emotions that you'll feel, he understands it, he'll cry with you and rejoice with you. Embrace the good and the bad times. He'll always be present.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
Our purpose in this life is to live for Jesus. You've been given a hefty challenge...to love and care without question. But, we do this because Jesus overcame the world...we've not been promised an easy life, but we have been promised heaven.
Love,
Mommy
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
On loan
For those of you who know me, or who read this blog, it's quite apparent that I'm a an emotional crazy person...no really, sometimes I think I must be crazy. We are full on Nolan's Walk for Williams planning. Just this afternoon I received confirmation that we have 5 other families coming to the walk who have a child with Williams syndrome. I got like, over the top, excited thinking about being with that many people who get it, I mean really get what it's like, who probably understand my rants, who probably feel some of the exact things emotionally...not just the bad, but the good too. An hour later I'm in a panic remembering that it wasn't too long ago I looked at my sweet husband while sobbing and said, "It's like, Nolan's not really ours. He looks more like a group of people than he does our family. I can't look at him and say he reminds me of you, or, he looks like my baby pictures. It will only get worse the older we all get...It's like it's the four of us and then...Nolan." Of course Brandon listened, affirmed my feelings, but, by the grace of God, he's been given an acceptance of the situation that I don't have...
And, thus my panic, how will it be to see Nolan with 5 other precious blessings who will look more like his brothers and sisters than Aubrey and Adelynne do? Lord give me perspective and clarity that day...
A dear friend recommended Mary Beth Chapman's book Choosing to See. She's the wife to Steven Curtis Chapman and a few years ago they lost their 5 year old little girl in an accident. To make the grief worse for their family, their teenage son was driving the car that hit Maria (a complete accident). The book talks a lot about Mary Beth's childhood, how she met Steven, their early years, starting a family, adopting 3 precious little girls from China, the accident, etc....but what impressed on me the most was her description of her grief....seeing God in the midst of despair, how all the things in our life are an intricate design of Him. Obviously, I haven't lost a child in the sense that they are no longer here on earth with me, however, the grieving process is very similar. There was so much in this book where I saw myself, saw Nolan, saw our journey. Like Maria, who is now in heaven, our little boy really isn't ours. He's on loan from the One who knit him perfectly in my womb. And it's not just Nolan who's on loan, Aubrey and Adelynne are as well...I forget that with them because Aubrey has her daddy's toes and sense of perfection...only by the grace of God...Adelynne has Brandon's beautiful eyes and attention to detail...only by the grace of God. But, they are on loan, for however long the Lord grants us. One WS mom said to me once, "My biggest fear is that the Lord will call her home before I am ready." I feel the same way.
Could I ask you to pray for Nolan's Walk for Williams? Pray for safety in travel for the families who are coming. Pray for a positive uplifting event.
And, thus my panic, how will it be to see Nolan with 5 other precious blessings who will look more like his brothers and sisters than Aubrey and Adelynne do? Lord give me perspective and clarity that day...
Could I ask you to pray for Nolan's Walk for Williams? Pray for safety in travel for the families who are coming. Pray for a positive uplifting event.
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