MIA = Missing in action
It would seem I've been missing in action since I haven't blogged in over 30 days. Even Brandon came home from school one day, pulled up the blog and said, "Geez, you haven't blogged in forever!" There is actually so much swirling around in my head, I could probably have 20 separate blog posts, but, my cluttered mind actually leaves me with writers block.
When I go through the "sad parts" of the grieving process, I have a hard time verbalizing my thoughts and feelings as well. It also seems to somewhat paralyze me from thinking or doing anything else other than my day to day stuff. As I come out from under my foggy cloud of sadness, I'm able to process a little more.
In the last month, Aubrey's reading has really taken off. We find her reading more and more on her own with little to no help and is actually enjoying it! Last night, I told her I would time her, and for every 10 minutes she read, she could put a sticker on her chart (once the chart is full, her reward is a Mermaid Barbie she's been trying to earn). Before we knew it, she read 5 books and had been reading for an hour. I don't think she's ever sat for an hour...in her life.
In the last month, Adelynne is really loving preschool. It's her 5 hours a week where she is Adelynne and not Aubrey's little sister. She is able to be herself without trying to to do everything Aubrey does. She also attended the 4's and 5's Suitcase Stories at the library...all on her own...no mommy. I was actually planning to go in with her, and then realized I was the only mommy who was trying to get in rather than out. I looked around and felt silly, so, I told Adie I'd see her after. :)
In the last month, Nolan has managed to steal even more of my heart. I didn't know it was possible to be more crazily enamored, but, alas, I am. His speech continues to progress and his attempts at communicating his needs is becoming more age appropriate. He also managed to break his crib. He jumps so much in it, he snapped the metal bracket that connects the wood base to the crib. Brandon was able to fix it, but, little fella did have to sleep in the pac n play for a few days.
In the last month, we've prayed about an opportunity to send the girls to a christian school next year. So far, God seems to be opening doors, and we're trying to enter them in faith. We continue to pray for God's leading and guidance.
In the last month, we've been contnually amazed at God's provision in digging us out of this medical debt. We're excited about our plan to have it all paid off within the year.
In the last month, I've had many quiet times that have brought great insight and reflection. I've enjoyed rediscovering some of my favorite music from Bethany Dillon, Jeremy Camp, and Christy Nokels. I've had some funny and fun times with my kids, and have enjoyed some deep productive talks with my hubs.
In the last month, I've been sad, but His mercies are new every morning and that feels nice.